About Me

Darkness

I was in a state of depression for such a long time, that I just realized I had to give in to it.

 

It was stronger than me.

 

At that time.

 

I could smile when it was time to be around people, even my husband.

 

But my world was dark.

 

I didn’t think about harming myself, but I thought like every pain I felt was going to be a diagnosis of death.

 

Even the small pains.

 

I started having anxiety attacks and I didn’t want to leave the house.

 

“God, I’m holding on by a thread. I need you. Please come get me.”

 

I repeated those words, over and over, day after day. I didn’t know what else to do.

 

I started reading the book “The Battlefield of the Mind”, by Joyce Meyer and Priscilla Shirer’s book “Fervent”.

 

Those books gave me a glimpse into what my life could be like if I were to change my mindset.

 

They were what pulled me from the edge of despair.

 

I felt a little stronger.

 

I got a little more into reading my Bible.

 

I learned about the S.O.A.P method of Bible study.

 

I started writing out scripture.

 

I looked for the scriptures that would help me through what I was going through.

 

I should have been seeing a therapist, but I really didn’t want to leave the house much.

 

I would soon learn that I was only reading the Bible for what would help me.

 

Turning back

I took a course called “Rooted” through my church.

 

Soul-saving!

 

I learned so much through this study. I went back to the basics of learning about God.

 

I was rededicating my life to Him.

 

I started talking with people about what was happening in my life.

 

The more I talked, the more I felt my spirit returning.

 

I felt light around me and I began reaching for my Bible more.

 

Not to see what blessings I wanted to get…

 

…But to see what God had to say to me.

 

The more I read, the more I felt the darkness lift.

 

I began hearing the words “Write your story?”

 

I didn’t hear it in my ear, it was more of a tug in my spirit.

 

I didn’t want to write my story.

 

I was embarrassed. I felt guilty. I was ashamed.

 

But “Write your story didn’t go away.”

 

So, I’ve been writing it.

 

The more I write, the more I talk about it, and the more I encourage other people to read their Bible, the better I feel.

 

In my turning back to God, I found that He accepted me back with open arms.

 

I even started experiencing Him communicating with me through His Word.

 

I feel that when I read His Word I am connected to Him in a way I never have been before.

 

Because of this I feel that God is calling me to encourage others to have a connection with Him.

 

Connection with God makes all the difference. 

 

Connecting with Him means that I have peace, joy, love.

 

I feel that He has fully forgiven me, and I know that if you have experienced turning away from Him, He will fully forgive you too.

 

What I do…

I’ve been a storyteller since I could talk.

 

Just ask my family about my imaginary friends “Bobby” and “Gheddo” (I honestly don’t know where the names came from.)

 

My love for creative writing started in 4th grade. I had the best teacher who would allow me to write stories and she encouraged me to keep writing.

 

But writing wasn’t what I pursued in life – even though I wanted to.

 

I took the long way around.

 

I worked in Customer Service

 

I was a teacher

 

I have a Masters in Literacy.

 

All of that has led me right back to my first love and what I believe is my purpose.

 

Writing.